Most of the time I don't regret. However as any other guy, I have a couple of memories, of mental places where I wish I had done different. Specially in the romantic landscape. Above all, maybe because it was one of the first such moments I remember one about high school. So many years ago...
First let me travel you to those years, late 90s. What was hip then? zip code Beverly? Madonna? I had a crush on a girl, her name is Daniela. She was, I guess, extremely beautiful, because later I discovered I wasn't alone in the fan club. What I really liked about her was her sagacious mind. I remember several fun talks with her. In those days, I argued even more than today. Slicing and argument with pure words was a good hobby we both shared. Anyway, if I'm today timid, try to imagine how shy I was back then. Did I ever tried a move? Of course not! Not a real move anywho. (No, I haven't reached the regret part :P be patient.) She was an old-school girl, went to church and all that. In those years I was very faithful so that sounded great to me. She saw me as a great friend, and she trusted me a lot. As pollo can testify with the slap he received. But that's another story. So it happens that one day, I even remember what both of us were wearing and all, we were in the school bus to bugambilias, she said "a guy invited me to the movie theatre. I don't want to go, but couldn't said no. Could you come with us?" That's the moment. I wish I had acted different! But I said, "No, you go there. Enjoy the film. It's rude if I come along." :( I could have gone. Or I could have said, "you know, maybe you ditch him and go with me." Or so many other things... My logic in that moment. "Obviously that guy is into her. It would be unethical from my part to put a foot in his way. I don't even do anything. She deserves good." Instead of being real, I stayed a far. Stupid. Ok, let's fast-forward, that guy became her first boyfriend. And for several months I couldn't stop thinking how all that could be different... She ditch him some months later, but that's besides my point. :P
And why do I tell you this Today? Because Today, I suddenly realized another moment where I would wish I had another chance. :( Jalatinazo! Hope I could learn a bit faster.
First let me travel you to those years, late 90s. What was hip then? zip code Beverly? Madonna? I had a crush on a girl, her name is Daniela. She was, I guess, extremely beautiful, because later I discovered I wasn't alone in the fan club. What I really liked about her was her sagacious mind. I remember several fun talks with her. In those days, I argued even more than today. Slicing and argument with pure words was a good hobby we both shared. Anyway, if I'm today timid, try to imagine how shy I was back then. Did I ever tried a move? Of course not! Not a real move anywho. (No, I haven't reached the regret part :P be patient.) She was an old-school girl, went to church and all that. In those years I was very faithful so that sounded great to me. She saw me as a great friend, and she trusted me a lot. As pollo can testify with the slap he received. But that's another story. So it happens that one day, I even remember what both of us were wearing and all, we were in the school bus to bugambilias, she said "a guy invited me to the movie theatre. I don't want to go, but couldn't said no. Could you come with us?" That's the moment. I wish I had acted different! But I said, "No, you go there. Enjoy the film. It's rude if I come along." :( I could have gone. Or I could have said, "you know, maybe you ditch him and go with me." Or so many other things... My logic in that moment. "Obviously that guy is into her. It would be unethical from my part to put a foot in his way. I don't even do anything. She deserves good." Instead of being real, I stayed a far. Stupid. Ok, let's fast-forward, that guy became her first boyfriend. And for several months I couldn't stop thinking how all that could be different... She ditch him some months later, but that's besides my point. :P
And why do I tell you this Today? Because Today, I suddenly realized another moment where I would wish I had another chance. :( Jalatinazo! Hope I could learn a bit faster.
posted by Guillermo at 11:31 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home