I'm Feliz, and have been that way for most of my grown-up life. As a child I was also, but I didn't knew it. I just didn't thought it was necessary to call it a name. There was a part in my youth, when I discovered it wasn't the usual way for most. Got intrigued. During adolescence I got mixed up and thought maybe I wasn't happy after all. Maybe it is something one has to fight for. Of course now I know better, being happy it's as easy as going back to kansas. Yes I know many must meet funny friends before getting it. But there's nothing wrong with being in kansas all the time. Yet, many feel that unless the world sends you to a strange yellow road, you can't go to kansas! How strange. The reason behind, I suppose, is that they live in a world where life is a huge school. Poor fellows. If you like learning as myself, great. But life isn't about anything. Get over it. If you learn something in the middle of the road, great, but it ain't the purpose. You can do worse than enjoy it. Anyway, there was a time when I was shy of actually telling that I'm Feliz, basically for fear of hurting the guys around me who aren't. On another post I should comment about a conversation with allan about it. So I'm not used to talking about it, except with people who are also. It's kind of easy to see who is, and who is pretending. No, there's no secret club, and the illuminati doesn't exist, and I'm not part of it :P
So what changed? That julio told me there's no such thing as true Felicidad! WTF. That's where I draw the line. And I blame religion for that bad BAD idea. For making my friends believe themselves puppets. For promising joys, and bringing just remorse & guilt. For making them treason themselves as they get to worship death above life, an invisible perfection above humanity. For being a path to despair that teaches the world is evil instead of awesome. For they start to believe in distrusting their brothers, for they are "sinful". For they have to rupture ties with all magnificent life. And so on and on. Life is much more than you could ever imagine, if you let yourself out of death cults. If only I could show you. And no, I'm not any less Feliz, because I can't open your eyes. It's your path and it would be a mistake to force feed you any idea. Forever free, we are all, irremediably free. =)