Monday, August 11, 2003

Let me remember. Today I found the next proyect I'll be working on. I expect it more than happy, I wished to be there when I first here of it. The dark side of this story is that I'm afraid of my current proyect. I feel pressed cause I had 'til september 10 to work as hard, then jump... I want to leave a finnished job, so I'm seriously thinking on working extra hours. In fact I'm in middle of compilation =) (at home =). This "morning", we (my team and I) posed for the team photo. And I wondered in midmeeting how long will this team be. Yeah, anyone who knows me will find it strange, I'm not about longing. I'm more tao, and even if I like them and find it so cozy I have always considered that life is about change.

So why do I thought that, or why do I remember it? Well, I discovered how much I have advanced on status level inside this team. So? And I think I'm on the right track for now, yet this path cannot continue for long. In what moment will I fly? Fly from my team, in any case. So should I continue until the stars are on the right position (maybe waiting until Cuthulhu rises?), until the last of the people I've come to respect/admire/care goes away, til I'm about to explode and need with all my soul a change or just jump if I don't see myself as working forever here?

Waiting for opportunities is as best lame, one should produce it or at least be prepare which give us the worst case, waiting forever. I'm not about being the last for the sake of being it. I understand that there's no case to live a life you don't, however this ain't my case. Should kids go work instead of studing? Should painters avoid sketches?
First of all let me explain my abscence. First I stopped writing out of my lack of time, yeah right you could say. Then it was more like no real urge to express anything, I found it out a place to write at office. It easily turned to "decidia" (I would stick to it until english makes a worthy word for it). Then I forgot. In all this time few people asked me to return to this place, so I thought, well it's no such loss. Afterall, I didn't bring into existence this thing to just write my ideas for me. But the real fatal blow was when I discovered with great pain that blogger had problems. I was really disgusted with losting part of this blog (remember always back-up). Yet I promised Julian that whenever I had internet access on my home I'll return. And I kept my word. Technically I was over, after fullfilling my promise.

It's fun how things got tied. After all this break I still had a minuscle desire to express. I fathom open books =) But there's much appeal to tell my story. So as any good engineer, yes, I call myself engineer (well I call myself many many things, so engineer must be at least a syllable of my name); I started with an analysis of requirements. Watching how green is the camp. Then some people spontaneously asked me about my blog. This two events mark the beginning of my reentrance to this world.

But I will try to find alternatives to blogger, afterall if I will work on this I would like some changes. First of all filters. How about giving the reader power to get rid of that "annoying lojban words"? I don't think of myself like talking with you of a theme you find boring. Of course it could destroy the concept of blog, or of this particular blog (but it will be fun to do). End of metaspeech about blogs.