Friday, September 02, 2005

Don't know why or rather don't want to explain fully how I got into this mood, anyway. I'm feeling strongly Atheist in this moment. It is all this julio's experience, combined with a practical joke to monge, so much Thelemapedia and that amazing repository I found... That I think I'm gonna change a bit the way I have behaved. For instance, I will stop showing the incongruence from the inside, people just don't like it, close themselves. I've always view religion as one of the most personal and important thing in one's life. By that concept, I mean, "your view of the world". Another would be sexuality, but I digress. For me it was obvious that one must be in the pursuit of congruence with our beliefs. And so I tried to show the mismatches when I found them at other peoples pink bubbles. No more. I won't treat with care what they themselves haven't done. If and only if asked, I would just say the truth. Your concept of gods doesn't ring any bells in my head. What I have heard about it, is all obviously paradoxical non-sense. You are in the right to believe whatever you want, and so do I. We are at the same level. We are both intelligent human beings, and as so I would act upon.
Right now, I could quote thousands (maybe tens) of high quality remarks. I may open a blog just for all the fabulous quotes I have along the way enjoyed.

Here I put the poles under which I arm my tent.

It is probably true that almost all atheists stand for the values of reason and freethought. I will attempt to put these values in more substantial terms. There is the belief that inquiry and doubt are essential checks against deception, self deception, and error. There is the belief that logic and the scientific method is the only way the world can arrive at an agreement on the truth about anything. And there is the belief that it is better to be good to each other and to build on what we all agree to be true, than to insist that we all think alike. The words I have put into italics above are the very things I believe all atheists should stand for.
-- Richard C. Carrier

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Ok, this may be boring to anyone not a coder, and let's accept it, may also be to those who have programmed.

Have you ever passed five straight hours, scratching your hair, wondering what the heck has the compiler didn't get? "You can't access a private member." "WTF, I pwn you!" And in the back of your brain you laugh. It will be a stupid simple thing, you will see -- you tell yourself with certain amusement. Monkey mind, stop it. This shall work Today or you won't go to Monterrey... Then you start the humble search. "Hey you , do you see any reason why this won't work?" (It's in C++, my most hideous code ever...) They all blink. Maybe if you put a * or & here... *blink* Thanks anyway. You know it must work today, so you go one level deeper. "Hello ..." "Have you tried ___?" Thanks anyway. Maybe some fresh air, eating... Nop, it hasn't change mira-closely. "Hey Alba if you were to code this, how wou..." And then you get it! That piece of the puzzle is there.
As a child I desired to had 3 professions. Wanted to be a Vet, a fire-fighter and a Magician. I think I got my wishes. Life of a coder is a high level fire-fighter, isn't? To close some points, I think talking with Alba was the key, 1 duh-point. Hasn't been the first time I contact a demigod, which is surprisingly a nice thing to do. It was a *, after all. Yes, I'm going to Monterrey!!! Alas. Yes, I think I have created my worst code ever (well up to now). No, pwn isn't a typo. If you don't know what I meant and have a C.S. degree please leave it in the bin. =)

For those who aren't coders, here is my parallel explanation of what happened. "Why isn't the machine doing what I want [instead of what I asked it to do]?" "Maybe if I convince every person I find that my view is correct, the machine will change." "Yes you are right" all say. "Ok Ok, that didn't work. Even if I convinced that guy who made the machine that it should work this way... Let's try to understand who the machine works [by explaining it]. Surprise, so that assumption was wrong." Yeah I know it looks pathetic, but don't tell me you don't do it sometimes :P