Well Friday passed and it was great. More people came than I thought, and there were people I wished to see there... and then there were people who couldn't enter just because the place was full (at least in our corner). I swapped context every few minutes trying to be with every guest. Of course I could've passed the night talking with padilla or allan or pollo, but didn't felt right.

I want to share here my experience yesterday but there is a phrase that reverberates more. "Mr. I'm so happy I don't get angry" said by Diana...

On one aspect it seems good that people think that I'm so happy to be unable to get angry. However it doesn't seem healthy to be one of that kind, and worse I AM NOT that thing. Well, yes, I am normally optimistic and try to make people feel that there is a light for every shadow. I'm a leveler. But as everyone else I've my problems which happen to be by nature the same just manifested in my quirk way. In other words, maybe I don't have problems with my girlfriend or with the purpose of life but there are reasons (for instance not having one). In many ways I've fight very hard to let people know that I'm not just a ______ (insert word).

There's also the way she said it. For context purpose, I was amused by the idea that someone who I didn't invited was coming. Normally I don't care, on my viewpoint making a party isn't about celebrating my "persona". It's about having all these people near each other so I can enjoy there company. Yet this particular person disturbs the environment. And has the tendency to do obnoxious comments. there isn't a real hard thing against him, just that for me it is a paradox of what a real person is. So I try to avoid it. For example that afternoon he started inviting people to the party and got angry with me just because I didn't stopped working to please his doubts about where was it going to be. He yelled "blah blah that's why I cannot get with you, you don't invite chicks blah blah" As if he knew who was invited or I even tried to get with him. So I shout "If you don't want to come, DON'T". On retrospective I should have said "DON'T by any means". BTW, people even said things like "Maybe I shouldn't come" after knowing that he was coming. It was a prank of course, but htere's some truth to these kind of jokes. Anyway, I took it this way "If he comes, fine. It's a free country I'll have a little more work trying to save my other guests from inappropiate behaviours, but I'll enjoy the meeting and maybe I'll alas encounter the human spark on him." If I sound too prideful tell me. So I started digging up who invited him, just to ensure that my feeling are known.

And then she said it. It was on a chat so I don't have many clues about the inflection, but it sound like "aj?, at last you show your true skin!" So I felt kind of hurt at first, as if I weren't true to her. As if I wore a mask of happiness. Which isn't the case. Then I recalled more and went, maybe is because she senses me as too pasive. Of course I realized that she didn't meant it to be a statement, it was just a funny phrase for her. But I continued on my journey... you see I believe in trying to find truth even on lightbulbs. Do I have some sort of Clark Kent syndrome (without the powers)? That would mean I'm form derecha...

BTW, reiterating I'm human, I also get angry and are pretty comfortable being angry when I am.

My day was like a holiday. People even said, it seems as if it were a Friday. We (ibm-tec-friends) had lots of just hang time. By "hang time" it's just that elapsed time when you stick together not because there is a special reason, but because one is fine iwht just hanging around. At the sametime another friend decorated by cubicle (which served as a way to see how fast I'm on tracking objects). I resolved that problem more or less like Alejandro Magno with the gordian knot.

At lunch, we had a nice picnic. Just like Merriam-Webster says, "a pleasant or amusingly carefree experience". And all the day I had that feeling of people trying to demonstrate me, "I care for you" "You matter". The static on the air had that touch. For that, thanks, gracias, xiexie, ki'e, merci, danke...

Let's see how Friday will be =)

Thought while walking to my home, 18:22.

"You know Memo, if someone tells me, 'Time is up' (death). I would reply, 'Ok, thanks'".

So that sums up, I'm Feliz. Tons of dreams and projects. Many more people with whom I would like to live. All my life before me, but all is more than enough. No, I'm not tired. I'm alive! Life is good.

Done today, 00:20.

Will I am. A misty cloud in the sky. Leveler. Atheist. Pisces. Optimist, dreamer, humanist, eudemologist. Easygoing. Lojbanist. Firend, son and even sometimes teacher. Extra #256 on the game of Life as played by that nice guy. Eipipuz. Guillermo, Memo.

Feliz Gracias.